When no one loves me, I will learn to love myself.

Wednesday, December 31, 2008 -{'12:50 AM

LAST DAY OF 2oo8 .
LET WELCOME 2oo9 (:
happy birthday shimin chatterbox (:

TO CLIQUE :
i will not forget these happy memories , happy moments with clique .
thanks for coming into my lifes & i am glad to have you all as my good friend .
thanks god to let me enter to this wonderful class & met till all of you (':
althought we have sad & unhappy things happen in between
let it be the past alright , let continue our beautiful friendship (:
love , care , concern , listening ear , help you all have .
jokes , laughter , happy times , arguing , shooting you all did .
unocards , arcade , daytona , soccer , pokercards , games you all enjoy .
celebration , clique outing , studying together , clique chalet is our bonds .
library , arcade is the places we usual place we hang out without fail .
i think if i continue it will be a list down , hahhahha :D
i want to thanks & apologise to them la (:

i still think im blessed sometimes but not all times :x
YOU'LL ARE MY BEST FRIENDSHIP :)

my 2oo9 wishes ;
- all my friends , family , relatives stay healthy always .
- parents give me more freedom ( EG ; allow me to ton outside with friends )
- 18th birthday with clique no matter what :D
- more money money ! :D

- study hard hard ~
- still waiting for this friendship :/
- true love ? :x 就是喜欢你 !

FUCK !

christmas tree yar ! :D

Monday, December 29, 2008 -{'8:08 PM

Happy birthday daphne ! (:

wake up at 8am today , prepare & out at 9am . Meet up with dengjun
& michelle at admiralty . Train down to jurong east to meet up with
junqiang and samantha . Went for the " Build a bear " interview at

suntec . Not only us , that other peepos as well . I find the interview

quite weird , maybe special ? We need to introduce ourselves and

what fruit we like and why . The first round and guess what , we

are out already :x Went for our lunch at mac . We did chat about

this topic , did we cry infront of our friends before ? LAUGHS ! a

stupid question la . Then decided to go jurong point and see . I

think this is the first time i chat quite alot with junqiang . From

the shopping mall & chat all the way till he alight . First time :D

Don’t say i suagu :x Not long after went down to vivo city . To

many places to look for job . Vivocity to habourfront to singapore

flyer to marinabay then to suntec again . Did manage to fill in

some forms . I think that all . Reach home at 7pm . Im tired

because been walking the whole day & hours ! :/

I MISS CLIQUE :(

I MISS ALL OF YOU .

ALL BUSY WITH THEIR THINGS & STUFF ALREADY .

YOU ALL ARE THE BEST OF MY BEST FRIENDS LIST !(:

YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I MISS THEM ?

NO WORDS CAN EXPRESS MY MISSES! (:

IT SEEM LIKE IM LYING BUT IM NOT

I SWEARRRR ! :D

IM GLAD I'VE MET THEM IN THIS SCHOOL ,

IN THIS SPECIAL CLASS , YOU ALL KNOW ?(:

I REALLY MISS THE DAYS ALOT .

I WANT TO HANG OUT AT NIGHTS !

I LOVE & MISS IT SO MUCH :(

I MISS YOU ! :'(

FUCK !

am i a good friend ??

Saturday, December 27, 2008 -{'5:03 PM

taken during the chalet ; bbq :)

i wish everyday can be like chalet , i can go out as and when i like .

yesterday get to know our result , till now i still so disappointed la .

& i find it so weird la the results , i don't know how to explain it here .

i just simply hope i can promote to higher nitec , if not let me enjoy

first then letting me know everything :) yesterday night i find

someone very weird , don't know that person la ~ chat a short

while with mr daniel tan in msn , he said why never thank him

for giving me A's for his module , of course i thanks him la .

How i wish his module credits is the *most* !

but i still very disappointed with my BEO :(

AM I A GOOD FRIEND ?

I can't even protect this friendship , you meant alot to me la .

me myself ask me to give up on you but i can't .

yes , 3 months pass .

what i have read , maybe is truth .

i no longer your friend forever ??

FUCK !

merry christmas !

Thursday, December 25, 2008 -{'3:10 PM

MERRY CHRISTMAS!(:

monday;22 december! (:

On the phone with ray khenghong teckwhye yuting discuss about tmrl chalet

& and stuff . Slept at 3am , wake up 11plus use awhile of computerand soon

ray called , i thought he will be telling me what time to meet but he talking alot

of craps and nonsense in the phone . Meet vanessa khenghong ray & zhiwei

in the train . Wait for the shuttle bus for nearly an hour . First to reach the chalet .

Lo9 ! ~Then play daidi with them , last round i won but i drop my phone . Then

went to downtown with them . Meet diana teckwhye belwin yuting there . I saw

edmund there :D Went to the fair price and bought drinks . Went back to the

chalet , evening ms yee shab arifah & junqiang came with the foods . We went

to help to carry it back ~ Soon more and more people came . Me & diana went

to fetch weiyi . The malay guys came next , faizal farhan amir azman haziq .

Me weiyi teckwhye belwin junqiang went up to the room & play black jack ,

who lose need to get hit on the and number of times . Belwin's hand is very

red la ! *laughs* Went down as bbq started , food ready to eat :D credits

goes to ray khenghong & faizal (: Finally wahida came . After eating , walk

around the whole chalet with weiyi , and we also went to the beach & chat ! :)

windy ~ celebrate vanessa & diyana birthday !(: Wahida & diana left . Felt

so bad never help to clear up after everything . Around 11 start to play cards

with our gang !:) Play till half way , i very sleepy already . I can't remember

we played till what time . We went down to ehub . Although all the shops is

not yet opened . Went back to the chalet round 4plus am . We accompany

weiyi out then we went to see sun rise :D a short & far one -.- . Then went

back to the chalet .

tuesday;wednesday 23, 24 december! (:

Din sleep for the whole day ~ Went back to the chalet . Ray belwin teckwhye

still sleeping . Went to bathe . Been playing cards till the afternoon . Play with

the malay guys too . Rest awhile . Finally all wake up . Around 4pm , went to

pasir ris . Have dinner @ sakae sushi . 6 of us ~ Me teckwhye ray belwin

khenghong yuting . Eat till very full . My favourite dish is the fried tofu :D After

that went to arcade as usual . Went back to the chalet , left azman and haziq

staying . Watching tv programme . Play daidi as usual . Help to clear & clean

up . Something i don't really like happen . nevermind . I have no energy to say

it anymore . I nearly cry out !:X I went out to the swimming pool area to sit &

rest awhile . Rain come again . The weather is weird ! ~ Heavy rain come &

very soon later then rain stop , it happen afew times . I WANT TO WALK IN

THE RAIN LA ~ but i can't la !! someone shout at me ! so went back went

back to the chalet watching yu le bai fen bai . Play daidi , lose need to eat

the not very nice cake -.- , i ate quite anumber of packet la . Half way no

energy to play so din play , rest at the table . Soon went to sleep around

4plus am . Wake up around 8 plus am .Book out at around 11plus . Train

back . Chatting all the way with teckwhye . Accompany ray to bukit batok

& home next . Use awhile of computer & went for a short nap ..

CHRISTMAS EVE !

wake up around 5plus , went out & meet up with teckwhye ray belwin diana

khenghong at jurong east . Went to newton . Went to the food centre for dinner ,

This is my first meal of the day la . hahahaa ~ weiyi reached . Chat after our

dinner . Decide to go to town . Diana went home . We train to orchard . Not

as many people as i expected . Saw andrea & jeffery :D nothing much

actually . Have been walking to this place & to another place , walking

around chatting away . I left first . Reach home around 1230am . Went

off to bed at 2am . Im still tired la ! all the best for tmrl result day ~

OVER ALL I ENJOY MYSELF (:

I GIVE UP ! I REALLY GIVE UP ON YOU ALREADY .

:'(

FUCK !

i want go disney land !

Sunday, December 21, 2008 -{'11:10 PM

thanks huiyi cousin :)

she bought it at japan ~

for cousins .

she get to go to DISNEY LAND !!

i want go !!! :(

last two night i can't sleep well again . Friday night slept at 3am ,

yesterday night sleep around 4am plus !:X whole body aching like

hell la , wake up 12noon , use awhile of computer then went to watch

drama with my mum . Ray called my house , chat awhile with him

about tmrl chalet & count down for christmas andd celebrate for

christmas day then off the phone continue to watch and off to

grandma house at evening . Watching boring show la . im

bored at that time la !!! * laughs* went back home at 10pm .

Called back ray then chat for quite awhile then went to pack

my bag :D looking forward for tmrl class chalet :) get to see

my clique & classmates & ms yee too :D

22 - 24 december :) don't miss me ~

hope i can enjoy myself for the chalet :)
& up coming christmas day ~

我会等! (:

for your return .

no worries , i will not show the real me infront all of you :)

FUCK !

I WANT TO SEE THE CHRISTMAS TREE ! *

Friday, December 19, 2008 -{'11:25 PM

can anyone bring me go see

huge christmas tree !!?

last night , can't sleep la T.T

1am already went off to bed end up 3am then fall asleep .
don't know why now adays keep
cannot sleep althought im tired .
wtf!* close my eyes repeated times again and again .
rolling here and there , i simply just cannot sleep la .
finding friends in my contact to chat on phone but
i guess they have slept .
& my mind keep thinking this and that . *help!*
wake up 11plus, prepare & went out to meet the buyer .
then off back home , watch another drama .
not really very nice yet , shall continue & see how .
was watching the little nyonya just now ..
i simply hate their rules !
why must the oldies help their grandson to choose wife ??!
i just simply hope niuzai will be together with yueniang :D
:D

Who can be my diary ,
so I can pour all my sorrows to that person .
I thought i can write all my unhappy ,
what ever things in here but
i choose not to & also hard to .
I don’t want to let you all know simply because
i don’t want my loves one to leave me one by one .
i promise some of my friends that i will tell or
what ever shit i have to them but my mouth still zip :x
That my weakest point la, even to my very good friend ,
I’m still like that .
Sorry friends but no matter what I still love you guys (:
this year really many unhappy things happen .
But i did met many good friends (:
* good and bad comes ! ~ *
i love my friends la ,
can you all don’t leave me ?? *hees*
whatever nicknames i give name .
listening ear , tely-pathy, shifu , listener , uncle ,
si tw , chatterbox , jokers , gossipers

FUCK !

BORINGGGGGGGGGG~

Thursday, December 18, 2008 -{'10:54 PM

editededited!*

YOYOYO!(:
i have been staying at home like some idiot watching MISS NO GOOD !
i have finish watching it :)
very weird ending la .
tangmen is together with xiaohua :D
tmrl going to causeway point to help
weilee cousin to get the things from the buyer ~
& yar , mr daniel tan called me today .
just to tell me when we treating him dinner -.-"
ahlamak* O.o

& yar , sorry to this friend but i don't know who is it .
miss call again , private no again . *
i think i know who , sorry about it .
but still can't double comfirm ..
have you read this ?
if is you let me know :) ty*

im totally totally confuse la .
still appearing offline because ......
class chalet coming monday 22nd :D
hope i can enjoy myself ~

i guess tonight will still the same .

FUCK !

SHORT SHORT POST(:

Sunday, December 14, 2008 -{'11:33 PM

如果牵的手不是你的，我宁可不要 ~
Not the person you ppl thinking :)

im happy about something .
but i still think negative way ~
im sad about something .
jealousy ? :/

I MISS MY FRIENDS !:D

to cb : you have changed :'(

replied tag

to esther : i miss you real lots la , how are you ??(:

to eunice : i remove the songs ler , i know i know , hahaa , see you soon :D

to diana : i miss you & your jokes :D ya la , funny show :D see you soon ~

to weiyi : i write for the fun of it :x LOl . see you soon la ~

to jaslin : ya now holidays , i think same as urs de .

FUCK !

miss no good :D

Saturday, December 13, 2008 -{'10:16 PM

Me don’t like !

You smartly junkie , All the girls around you :/

I got so much to pour out

but no one wants to listen .

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA ~

Last midnight watch a tv programme . SUPERMATCH(:
Nice & sweet show la :D Last two night can’t have a nice sleep .
Sleep quite late as well ,
In the middle of the night wake up a few times .
Can’t fall asleep easily , what to do ..
Wake up , went out to buy lunch back
watching Miss no good, bu liang xiao hua :D
& i in love with this song ; 太烦恼(:
Been online the whole day i guess .
I seriously , hundred percent , really , want to go out
IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT ~
I LOVE NIGHT WIND MOST , WEES !
I MISS IT SOOOOOO MUCH LA .

FUCK !

8 digits away only la .

Friday, December 12, 2008 -{'10:40 PM

ANY KIND SOUL WILLING TO....

my mine now is confuse

about something .

i want to hang out at night ~

We haven't been in contacts for long .
However , i still want you to know that
no matter how far we're distant apart ,
when you need someone there ,
i'm just 8 digits away (:
( I don't know if you'll ever come by this page. )

FUCK !

new computer ; acer!(:

-{'2:05 PM

MISS ME ??(:
i miss clique real lots ~

i miss ite friends too .

have you really changed ??? :(
no matter what , i will still throw fault at you ~

i miss you la , hai .

11December;
great great stomach pain :/ pain like hell :( for 3 hours

brother called , ask me $699 computer can anot ??:)

went down to help my brother to bring up the stuff .

i saw his mum & puppy :/ cute la , hai nevermind .

ACER ; offer price ~ cheap la :D monitor , cpu ,

keyboard webcam . Thanks brother for helping

me to download & install into the computer &

free speaker from him ~

10December;
went down to ten mile junction with my mum & sis . To my aunt shop
Bought 2 shorts for myself :D Bought alot ~ Total cost is $270+ but aunt

only sold us at $150 . LAUGHS ;) Then went to BBP shop around then

went back to aunt shop & uncle drive us back ~

9December;
Meet up with eunice at around 130pm , train to causeway point .Went

to macdonald then accompanied her to shop around and walk around .

She bought herself a dress . Then train down to cck . Walk around there ~

cck library is small -.-" LOl . Then went to macdonald to buy fries :D Saw

teckwhye & junde working at the counter . Junde's queue no one so buy

from him ~ laughs . Train back to admiralty , saw bingsen at mac ,chat

awhile with him . then went to resident corner , chit chat & home at 6plus ~

5December;
Wake up quite early , prepare and use the computer for awhile , ray finally
return my call . Can't contact him the previous night . On the phone with him ,
he keep talking nonsense & self mad in the phone :x he know what i mean .
LAUGHS ~ Left the house at 9am , first to reach cityhall . Meet ray & jiajie
there . Bus there . Bought the tickets . All of them play flipper except me &
shimin . Separate from the others , me ray jiajia andrea michelle wee went
to play the prirate , pull jiajie and michelle wee along . Play 2 times , i can't
play anymore , giddygiddy ~ Play quite a number of times of family coaster .
Left there , the others went for their lunch , saw arifah at kfc :D After thar me

ray jiajie andrea michelle wee samantha went back to escape , continue to

play ~ We keep play the family coaster . Countless of times . At last i did

try to play the flipper , is not that scary as i thought . Left escape around

630pm , dinner at KFC . Train back , off at causeway point , wait for ray

till closing . reach home nearly 11pm .

FUCK !

first day of holiday :D

Wednesday, December 3, 2008 -{'10:20 PM

after all that had happen .
i still can't get over it .
:D

Anyway yesterday's kfc meal is not ray's treat , is wahida , no one tell
me so i thought is him :x so he still own me a meal :D around 10plus
wake up by weiyi sms , i sleep back . Around 11plus wake up by ray
sms , wake up , just switch on my computer not long after ray called .
chats for quite awhile , continue to use the computer , left my house
at 3pm . Meet teckwhye at Jurong point , walk around , ray reached ,
meet him then , he highlighted his hair and do look like ahbeng :x lol
laughs ~ then we went pizzahut . Finish then went to the acade , ray
and teckwhye playing mario ( driving ) , a very cute game la ~ left
there around 6pm . Teckwhye can you stop saying that name ?!
spoil my image la :x laughs . Meet wahida at clementi mrt station ,
we went back to school . Saw junde , jiajie & etc . Me & ray stay
at the canteen . Chatting and playing audition :) canteen is hell
dark la O.o then left the school at 8pm . Took bus 188 to cck .
4o minutes journey . I keep yawning & yawning in the bus :x i
very sleepy la , chatting in the bus :D then reach cck , not long
after homed . Reach home 930 .

FUCK !

last day of school :(

Tuesday, December 2, 2008 -{'8:12 PM

last day of school .

I CAN'T BEAR TO LEAVE YOU GUYS :(

CLIQUE,CLIQUE,CLIQUE !

BEST OF ALL ~

i love them all (:

& i miss some of my classmates too .

prabhu! hahah .

OG rocks man :D

mr daniel tan announced bpf paper result .
im happy with my result .
congrats to my friends
Beo paper was alright .
accompanied shameemah to mrt station .
so lame of me & weiyi to count how many
step to the mrt station again ..
bought bubbletea & went back to school .
OG vs OI soccer of course :D
bought them mineral water ~
yeah ! , OG won of course .
with a gold medal somemore , laughs .
while waiting , play with wahida's ipod game .
left the school at 4 .
i don't bear to leave this school seriously .
so much memories la :(
& is the last day of school .
i rather continue school la .
can't see my friends as offen anymore la .
left school with wahida khenghong ray teckwhye & kenny .
teckwhye & kenny off , rest of us went to KFC .
ray's treat , thanks thanks :)
when we were eating ,
is like having last meal with them la :/
don't know why i will think like that .
Hai .
Went to NTUC to walk around ,
drinks & foods for chalet :D
& off around 6plus .
tears start to row down :'(
i don't know why , i start to miss my friends already .
can't see each other offen as compare to school days .
really can't use to it la .
what the fuck ~
while walking home , i saw someone :x
spoil my mood again , why ?
can anyone save me from the hell to the heaven ??
:(

FUCK !

poa paper ~

Monday, December 1, 2008 -{'11:13 PM

I HATE YOU THE MOST :D
fuckyouman!~

edited *
Poa paper was alright :D
jeffery joyce huiwen & co back to school .
we down there chatting with jeffery ,laughter going on :D
then left to IMM macdonald with weiyi wahida shameemah ~
have our lunch there then off to the library .
chatting down there , gossiping :D
" CANNOT JUDGE THE BOOK BY ITS COVER "
is very truth la , i still can't believe it man :X
khenghong came over to chat with us & came ray .
kenny were there too (:
i hurt my leg :( with a loud "bomp" sound !
BLUE BLACK LA !
playing games with weiyi shameemah khenghong & ray .
funfunfun!:D & of course is not truth la .
ray always make it so complicated la .
tmrl shall continue .
last paper tmrl , all the best :)
thanks teckwhye for the correction tap , a gift :) ~
off to study later for beo .
Back from my revision ,
7plus studied till 10pm , laughs .
manage to memorize unit 1-6 ,
hard for me to memorize 7-12 .
was chatting with eunice in msn .
khenghong,weiyi & andrea in msn not long ago .
a conversation of course ~

FUCK !